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10:05 a.m. - 2003-01-31 This all just goes on, and on, and on, and I don't even know what to say to anyone anymore. I can't even stand the sound of my own thoughts...how can I expect anyone else to? You can't put everything back together; some things just aren't fixable. I don't want you to be there for me all the time; I only want you to be my friend. And you can't be a mother to me now; you don't even have any concept of what that means. You left me for him, and now you expect me to be happy that you're getting married..? Why would I be happy about anybody getting married? It always seems to ruin things. Anyway...I'll only be just like her, anyway. That's a lot to look forward to; a lifetime of living with the inability to grow up, or live without someone, ANYONE, of the opposite sex, and I'm so tired now, I guess we can throw my grandmother in, just for s's&g's. I'm sorry, ya'll. I can't do this anymore.
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